Passion Week

Hello once again,.. hmm this seems to be more like a weekly blog now.. anyways.. ONCE AGAIN... I"M BORREEEDDDD!!!! BORED AT WORK!!! WANNA SLEEP AT HOME! AHHHHHH! OKAY MAYBE I"M JUST FEELING A BIT CRAPPY>>>> BUt Sigh..it's really uncomfortable here..

Anyway, the last week was "The Passion" Week.. had my first Lenten Vigil at the Holy Spirit Church. Boy, never imagined staying up the whole night, playing violin, worshipping and reflecting on the meaning of the Cross, it was just so meaningful.

Then on Good Friday, I caught "The Passion of The Christ" with my family. Yeah, they thought Jesus was speaking Arabic!! Ahhahha... but it was a really moving experience for all of us.. I cried my eyes out.. I think half the time it was a very emotional show for me, but there's so many lessons to learn from it! So i might just watch it again! Though I don't usually watch movies twice... :) I think Jesus is worth watching twice isn't it?

Well, and for more passion about The passion, I had a chance to talk about the movie with a friend, and realised so many important things that I missed. And when I read the book "100 questions about the passion" it just got me feeling that hey, do we really know Jesus? Do we really understand His passion? Even watching the movie may not give people that deep understanding about His Passion, His purpose, His character. However, the movie was good enough in getting me to ponder about Jesus' absolute determination to fulfill His purpose...

If I were there carrying the cross (For something I wasn't "lying" about), would I still walk through, or just fall flat on the road, saying, "ok... just kill me now will you?", or If I were in the crowd, would I really believe Jesus as the Messiah?

GOSH! What a scary thought, coz i just might as well NOT believe, not have any conviction. And today, aren't many also living like that? Not really believing, not really living as if Jesus has come and won the victory, not really living as if there were any change in our lives (brought by Jesus)> Then if the case, where's JESUS in our lives?

Certainly this movie and this whole weekend was a solemn one for me, getting me thinking about Jesus and just longing for more of Him in my life. It is only by His Grace and His Holy Spirit that we are saved and convicted. So then my prayer is to know Him even more... and to live as if I knew Him.

I've recently read somewhere that Knowing Him is to be liberated, whereas knowing the world is to be enslaved... This jaded culture makes sin out to be desirable: greed, lust, laziness, anger, pride, envy, gluttony. It strucked me that everyday, I've actually been doing either one or more of these 7 deadly sins, without even knowing it! Certainly Satan is like a hidden shadow working always to keep us away from Virtue, from Spiritual growth, and all the more I want to know God more! His ways is light, and it saves! Don't you agree?