Saturday, September 18

An exerpt: Life, in fact, is too much for us

An exerpt...

Life, in fact, is too much for us. This business of living in awareness and response to God, in attentive love to the people with us, and in reverent appreciation of the world round about exceeds our capacities. We aren't smart enough, we don't have enough energy; we can't concentrate adequately. We are apathetic, slouching and slovenly. Not all the time, to be sure. We have spurts of love, passionate risks of faith, impressive episodes of courageous caring. But then we slip back into indolence or greed. Soon we are back at the old stand, handing out glib patter that fools others into thinking we are better than we really are. Sometimes we even deceive ourselves into thinking we are pretty nice people indeed. Jeremiah knew it all from the inside: "the heart is deceitful above all things, and desperately corrupt" (Jer 17:9).

But a ruthless honesty will always leave us shattered by our inadequacy. The world is a frightening place. If we are not a little bit scared, we simply don't know what is going on. If we are pleased with ourselves, we either don't have very high standards or have amnesia in regard to the central reality, for "It is a fearful thing to fall into the hands of the living God" (Hebrews 10:31). Pascal said, "Fear not, provided you fear (God); but if you fear not (God), then fear."


There is an enormous gap between what we think we can do and what God calls us to do. Our ideas of what we can do or want to do are trivial; God's ideas for us are grand. God's call to Jeremiah to be a prophet parallels his call to us to be a person.

Run with the Horses

Eugene H. Peterson

Thursday, September 9

That's fast...

Well.. u know what?

That night.. I reached a high of 40 degC... so my auntie Penny prayed with me.. and indeed, nothing beats the power of prayer.. and nothing beats praying with a person right there and then.

Still sick today, but my heart is no longer depressed. Great! Praise God!


Wednesday, September 8

Fever ~-~-~-~ ; |

Been sick the past few days since Sunday.. fever and a dreadful cough...

Sigh.. feels horrible just feeling like a bed-ridden incumbent... but then again, it makes me wonder why this? and what does God want to tell me..

I know sickness can be explained by a simple "Oh You should rest more next time.." yeah.. okay i've been working too hard. Maybe that's all there is...

Then again.. I can't help worrying what if there's something more? If God wants me to think of serious issues like any event in the future.. .. .. okay "CHOi!" Not good talking about these stuff right?

But indeed, it has made me think harder about Jesus's sacrifice for us by DYING for us... giving up his whole life..

And the fact that I will die one day.. am I afraid of it?

Perhaps this is the time when all spirit is at its peak bottom.. (don't think my facial muscles could pull a smile much the past few days).. that God's real love can be experienced.

I just hope to be back to reality once again.. school is like far off now.. and projects mounting.. I don't think reality is very pleasant at this stage either...

Sigh!!! God help me!



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