Sittin' in my room staring at the wall Wonderin' about the meaning of it all Why is it this thing called life Has got me goin' crazy So I open up your word and let it speak to me The purpose and the plan that you've designed Is clear to see, and I believe
Chorus: I'm gonna live for today I'm gonna follow in your way I'm gonna let my little light shine Like there's no tomorrow I won't worry about the past I know my future is intact So I'll choose to live my life one way I'm gonna live it for today
You told me not to worry About what lies ahead So I am gonna focus on today instead Making every moment count and counting Every single blessing I'm gonna set my mind on the Here and the Now This is what I want my life to be about And this is How...
Repeat Chorus
Yea
My o so crazy life has got me spinnin round and round hanging upsidedown Taking one step at a time holding your hand all the way and it'll be okay yea yea yea yea
Wow. I had a very good experience playing with Chris De Silva during the last 3 nights at St. Marys, Holy Family, and St. Teresa’s Church.
It was tiring.. and today I am a bit sleepier than usual. But it was simply amazing. His music, songs, lyrics… they just speak volumes about love for God. And I got to know Holy Fam's G2 choir members a bit more!! They’re fabulous singers. After being with them for 3 nights, I wish I could sing better..hahahahaha..
So Chris sings in one of my favourite of his songs “Can you See God?”… … See the colours of the rainbow, see the images of love, hear the music when the wind blows, hear the angels up above In the beauty of a new day, in the joy of every spring.. Can you see God, Can you see him? Can you hear God, can you hear him? Can you see God in everything…
It’s so beautiful, his music, blending worship, jazz, bossanova, and especially the choir chorusing in the background. I’m now like a newfound fan. Was so privileged for this chance to play with such a great musician. Thank God.
Indeed, God grants us our heartfelt desires even when we had lost hope, or did not fervently pray for it. Like a little gift a father gives his child, to encourage him to walk on.
To add on from yesterday’s depressing post, this morning is a bit brighter.
Well, it’s precisely the feeling of not being able to “see” God that we feel the distance, or that we wonder about Life’s purpose and meaning.
That’s why this skit makes so much sense to me. When I watched it I almost wanted to cry out.
Though people might think that my life is great, smooth, no worries, which is true in one way, no serious problems, mishaps, or financial woes yet…
But these are things in our lives, which ALSO come in between us and GOD. Even though we may be living ‘positively’ in the eyes of the world, my biggest question to myself, my family, my friends, is it really?
How slow are we, how dull are our minds at times. I’ve come to a new conclusion that was simply “throbbing” in my head this morning upon waking…. – that no matter whether we fill our lives or minds with positive or negative things, there is still an emptiness in my heart that longs for God alone. That silent longing for more, for love, for friendship, for security.. etc… comes from God alone.
SO I also ask… Does living positively simply reflect God in us, or lead us to God? Maybe it reflects a disciplined life and a positive attitude. But it doesn’t quite reflect God I think… What reflects God is love.
We had a Taize session in remembrance of Brother Roger last week, with OLPS ensemble performing again. It was wonderful coz I really believe that our ensemble has gotten better at listening to each other, knowing the songs, and even flowing with it. I thoroughly enjoyed playing with them!
Then there was the SACCRE Youth meeting which Marlene attended with me and Eugene for the first time. Hehe.. she was the noisiest of the lot, coz the meetings are usually very quiet!! People are very serious there! Hahaha…All serious to make great events and plans come about for Christ. I just love them.
On Friday there was my company’s annual summer party. It was an afternoon at Sentosa with team building games… running from Siloso to Palawan beach and back. Man I was truly tired.. so unfit! Haha.. but my group won first place!!! So it means 10am at work on Monday. That day, they also rewarded all staff with 2year service and more…. And I made it to 2 years (though there’s few more months to go actually). I dunno why I just feel glad. They’re smart. It makes you happy so we won’t leave and will stay.. heh.. smart move…
Yesterday whole day, was for YAM. We had meeting at Marlene’s house, and I practiced the guitar for the worship that night… and prepared session contents… And at that night, we had a wonderful session. I won’t say it’s because I did the session. But because I was glad to be of service. I “needed” to do the session because it was for me, a step out of comfort zone once again, a new step out of the mentality that “I am tired”. Spiritually, it allowed me to know that God can still use me and that God has still great plans for me. And my faith is renewed. My faith is refreshed. I am with new hope for my life and future in Christ.
And so I ask myself, will I continue doing this even as I am getting older and wondering if I should be stopping ministry to pursue other things like – maybe dress myself up even more?
I’m thinking… these are simply distracting thoughts designed to make me veer off course.
Why? Because there is simply a huge spiritual battlefield out there that God is calling us out to go there and be there to fight with him… this might sound so abstract, so alternate reality-sounding – but it’s true. In the Christian life, we cannot ignore the spirits that battle with God and His holy angels.. and what do we do amidst all that calamity? We shut our eyes, and ears, and tell ourselves that these do not exist? Or we take a closer look and find that it is all so real, and we step into it and begin fighting to allow God to be “king” in our lives?
When we submit to the lordship of Jesus, we will know Christ even more. We will know Him, know the peace that only HE can give, and know that HE has a great plan and purpose for us, that we will have life in eternity with Him and not away.
My prayer then, to the Lord then, is forgive me Lord for I have sinned.. .. and do not turn your face away from me Lord… because I want to be with You and You alone.. I want to worship you all of my days, I want to be in your presence and be your instrument. Help me Lord, amen!
My latest attempt. To paint JWM Turner's sunset. Taken from his original (below) of "The Fighting Temeraire" (ruby has a pic right!?) I'm now attempting to paint just the sunset portion. And it's not easy.
Here I've only managed to get the basic colors down in big bold strokes. But notice the detail. It's not so bland like mine. It's alive.
Of course. It's Turner.. one of Britain's most well-known artists of the 18-19th century.
Today was fantastic. Well... everything went smoothly, on time, mum went to shop at orchard robinsons, me went for my web class, and met my jazzical belles pal, Elaine smoothly after that for the Festival of Praise event at Indoor stadium.
It was jam-packed, so much that we sat right at the top level. But it was fine all the same. The message tonight was really resounding throughout everywhere I go.
Unity. Fun. God is God of the impossible. Cast your cares unto Him..
It was a refreshing night for me... enjoyable. Now it takes more action to put everything into practice!
Yikes.. I've been remembering my dreams in the past few days.. heh.. day before, dreamt about someone having my hair "chopped" off kinda like how you'd take a scissors and just yank it away. And i really didn't like it... So weird.. and just last night i dreamt too, there was one of my friend in there... and at one point i was a mother looking at her child eating (maybe coz i watched Nanny 911 last night) but there were just too many things in that dream to really make sense of it now. Anyway, dreams usually don't make sense! :)
But check this out.. was reading dreammoods.com and there's this interpretation "Haircut: To dream that someone is giving you a haircut, suggests that you are experiencing a decreased sense of power. You may feel that you were criticized unfairly. " And "To dream that you are losing your hair, denotes that you are concerned with the notion that you are getting older..."
This is quite true.. recently someone hinted that I wasn't "young" - some new colleague (who's also a freshgrad who doesn't know how to say the right words) said that he thought I wasn't just graduated from school by 2 years.. said maybe 5. Hello.. how insulting is that!
Anyway.. Looking forward to the weekend.. and to the people in the web class, but not the homework for the web class... : (
I’ve got the answer to my dream! Was mulling about it over last night and this morning... And it’s relevant what Sury tells me about the "Rest of the Lord". What is that "Rest"? I was thinking.. don't I already understand it? I did… but probably only one facet of it. And I am now once again convinced that God is never to be outdone. The depths of His wisdom is far beyond what we can imagine - or what I imagined.
And so the meaning of my dream only dawned on me this morning when I was hearing this song "Never Let Me Go" by Hillsong United (All of the Above album). And it correlates to the "Rest of God" as well.
The exam: Refers to my life. My life is like an exam. And at this moment, I have this negative attitude like.. so what, fail lor.. in my life.. and it’s something that makes me feel helpless.
The "looking for taxi, dressed as a man" part: Refers to me trying to take lead of my life. Taxi refers to direction - I want a quick solution to things... I don't like the bus. But seems I go around in roundabouts coz I can’t seem to see the answer to things. Dressed as a man refers to me leading. I am trying to be the MAN in my life.
The "being a woman, with a man in a tailor shop" part: Refers to my relationship with God. God wants to take the Lead. He wants me to be secure as I follow HIM. He wants to be the "man" and I’ll follow. He wants to lead me and let me feel loved, peaceful, joyful, and be free to be myself.
Oh dear.. I am so touched by His Spirit today - and renewed once again.
Never Let Me Go Joel Houston Hillsong United (All of the Above album)
In the shadows my spirit weak Love poured through the darkness lifted me I know you’ll never let me go In the storm in the raging sea Love conquered the fear and delivered me I know you’ll never let me go
Chorus: O Love, in the shadows, Be the light who, leads me on Your Love, I will follow, Be my guide, your will be done O Love
In the arms of the One unseen Love carried the cross that was meant for me I know you’ll never let me go
Chorus 2: O Love, in the shadows, Be the light who, leads me on Your Love, I will follow, O Love I surrender, now forever I’ll belong In the love of the Father, you are faithful, you are strong
Bridge: So Hold me now (repeat) Hold me now (repeat x 4)
Life is an opportunity,
benefit from it.
Life is beauty, admire it.
Life is a dream, realize it.
Life is a challenge, meet it.
Life is a duty, complete it.
Life is a game, play it.
Life is a promise, fulfill it.
Life is sorrow, overcome it.
Life is a song, sing it.
Life is a struggle, accept it.
Life is a tragedy, confront it.
Life is an adventure, dare it.
Life is luck, make it.
Life is too precious, do not destroy it.
Life is life, fight for it.
"Delight yourself in the Lord and he will give you the desires
of your heart." Psalm 37:4
