My Best Worst day
This is my best worst day. That is, the best of the worst... duh..
Anyway, I had been struck by an unexplainable, irritating, maddening, painful,.. headache the whole day, from my recce of the MCC resort at Pulau Ubin (for my FYP publicity campaign), to my youth ministry's outing at Sentosa. Well, not much difference, both are islands around Singapore, and both are dreadfully hot! I think I was suffering from heatstroke, dehydration, lack of sleep and general head failure.. maybe had to think so much during the presentation for the FYP to our client (MCC). Then again, I didn't do much, my other group mates were the ones talking most of the time... :
So then, at the outing.. great, i mean it was simply wonderful.. everyone was having fun.. i think all except me. Maybe I'm being too self centered. But sometimes, when you are caught up in a world where all you can think of is PAIN PAIN PAIN.. you can't really think of anything else then... Anyway, I wonder why I didn't just go straight home after Ubin and still stuck to going for the Sentosa outing. But I believe it's coz I couldn't think much and so just sat on the MRT from Punggol straight down to HarbourFront, and before I know it, Oh! I've reached Sentosa!
So how did my Worst day become Best among the worst...? Coz amazingly, when I reached home, I found I didn't have my house key and no one was home yet! RIGHT! Absolutely FANTASTIC! How good can that be! So I had to go wait somewhere.. so i went to lie on the chair by the pool downstairs. Great thing, praise God, there's the pool! It was so serene! And the cool night breeze was just blowing.. It was therapeutic I tell you. Moreover, I was wrestling with God during the "incredulous, emotional and just upset" journey home. I was wondering why I had the headache. (OKAY blame it on me sleeping late, the hot sun, and being really unfit..) I was wondering why I have to schedule sessions for each week, and not seem to get people to really be passionate about ministry, (or maybe it's not about the others, just my personal negative thought). I was wondering what God wants me to do when i'm feeling so down like this. So I prayed against the headache, against the negative thoughts, against the lack of meaning for what I'm doing.
And through that poolside time, I just thought it out, that I would still serve God, that I enjoy what I'm doing because I'm doing it for Him, that I should not get burnt out if I'm doing it in His strength, and that I don't need to act up or anything to gain people's approval. I am loved by God.
Well, so I woke up to the phone buzzing.. parents back home, and headache, almost gone. Refreshed! Not as simple as you think. It's God @ work. Do u see it? :)
