FYP is finally over - I've graduated!

That is if all goes well! ;P

And what is this slight tinge of sadness for not being able to go back to NTU!? haha.. nostalgia...


This is what we did to the tables & chairs in the PPC room. Hahah.. think American Idol eh.. except that this is for Bill Ryan, Alfred Choi and Lee Chun Wah!

Mosaic Workshop

Today I went for a Mosaic Workshop! It was fantastic.. therapeutic.. absolutely engaging.. cutting glass, combining cool colours, it was really lovely.. the simple quaint studio at east coast kept us cool (thank God!) from the sweltering heat outside.. I did a flower and sun pattern,.. it didn't turn out as I expected but well, it looks great all the same.. will be going back next week again to continue the work.. (it takes so long to cut all the pieces properly! - AND Circles are an absolute killer - can u imagine cutting circular glass pieces? piece by piece?!) LOL. Anyway, met a nice gal there too.. she's gonna be going to UK in June (Too!) to work... nice sporty gal, blades, and she has absolutely cool hair.. "Awwww"! the short cropped cut and gelled and dyed at the tips..i'd say its really funky.. perhaps one day when i lose weight I'd get myself a short hairdo like sec 3 once again.. mwahahaha.. there I go flying off into dreamland! But seriously.. why not! hahaha.. ok.. dream!.. dream dream drream... think beetles.. oh was it bee gees? or??

3 days to end of my studies??!!

3 more days and School's really really really over!! Not to mention, it feels over already! I just had a dream the other day that I was rushing around to collect autographs.. the sort of thing you'd do on the last days of school... and I was getting Ruby's autograph plus a few more of my secondary school friends (funny its the secondary school friends..ehehe) and then there was a ceremony-concert thing going on in some auditorium of which i missed (I always am the last to know and blur - something like me in primary school..)

So well interesting dream it was, but it didn't leave me feeling too great for today.. as usual, suckky mood.. i think it's just the mood? Maybe its the phase thing.. u know.. like.. now what's next in life? and having really itchy patches on my arms.. i better go see a doctor soon...

...rantings...

In a foul mood. Still feeling guilty for letting out a spoiler for a friend... Aww.. pls pls forgive me..!!!! Aarhhh! *writhes in pain*

Not to mention.. i think i need some sun... been sitting indoors all day.

And well.. anyone wanna donate blood? hahah sadistic as I am, I actually am proud to be a AB+ Blood donor.... who's up for it? who who??

Anyways, just an update of latest stuff going on... Firstly, i'll be appearing on Channel U! It's for the programme Man Enough, coz my friend weihan is being featured.. and i'm one of the people giving comments haha.. it was a bizarre experience, getting filmed.. Aw i just freaked out and mass comm student or not... i am terrified behind cameras.. I think i'm just self-conscious and shy eh? oh well.. u can catch it for urself on channel u thurs 21st April. 915pm.

Meanwhile.. There's gonna be some filming (filming again!) done at Hua Xin Court (WEIRD!)! At my poolside.. cool! Gurmit singh.. sylvester sim.. kim ng..

And another note.. I am obsessed with manga. Well.. that's a minor distraction considering there's only 2-3 weeks left in singapore.. before i go for my holiday, and then come back and gotta work already.. i guess I'm just giving myself a super indulgence for these few weeks.

As for Evangelism Project at youth ministry.. its so wonderful.. we've got an idea for a campaign name.. and its exciting.. I just want to faithfully see this through. Amidst all these.. I sense the fierce battles ahead of me and my team. I just see the possible disappointments, miscommunications, and lack of motivation.. but then again I also see that with human resolve and perseverance, and a focused mind and heart, we can succeed. More so, we will do so with a joyful heart, because we know that all these is for the Lord.

After next week, I've officially graduated. That's a sombre thought for me.. though its a huge YAY that there's no more school.. it's also a huge SIGH.. coz i have to start to get serious and get working and move on in life to become a "working adult"! The phrase seriously scares me.. i just feel like remaining a child forever.. then again.. such immaturity!! I guess this is life! What to do but face it with a positive attitude! :)

I think what disturbs me more is that I wonder if I have even grown or changed much in the past year! ... personality wise.. i feel totally depresssed... like i'm sinking into being a person whom I don't want to be.. lazy, unmotivated, particular, sometimes.. grumpy... sam sam sam!!

Guess i really need a long holiday!! And to be less punishing on myself.
http://www.oneishy.com/personality/personality_test.php me? I'm a melacholic-phelgmatic. Ugh the words itself sounds bad. haha.. and as for the pic below? I'd be the 3rd... in actuality..

Revamped Youth group blog

Hehe.. revamped it again! Gonna make it a people's blog... yippee

Check it out: http://holyspiritpower.blogspot.com

DQ ice cream

Had the most delicious ice cream sundae today.. maybe coz i've not had one in ages.. hehe.. Go get it .. DQ ice cream at Wheelock outside Burger King..

Yummmm.....

Hopeful and refreshed with 23 Goals in life!??!!?!

I praise God because of the peace and conviction He's given me in the things I am doing now.

Been so uncertain about future, but as I begin to start planning now, I see that God is changing my attitude. Where once I saw uncertainty as a sign for panic, I now see it as a open field ready for me to simply enter. In fact, I realise that a miracle is in my hands, for it to happen, I need to make my preparations. Not sit and pout.

Evangelism @ Work. A church project I've taken up. It's moving. And I really hope people would work together and be efficient and productive. If it can be difficult to work in a group of 4, what more 8 and what more 30-50 people? This is a Huge vision for me, but as I plodd on I am more and more enthusiastic for it, and with a passion that never seems to run dry. I thank God for teaching me the value of talking to people, and of leadership.. many many more things to learn..

Can we really reach the catholic people and cause their hearts to be stirred up into greater service, support and prayers? And not be lukewarm christians? I believe we can.. and we must.. if God is behind us, who can be against us? And well.. what about times when we'd get tired and weary? - God provides..

In fact, I'm constantly tired and weary, but God strengthens me! And makes me like an eagle soaring in the sky...

Anyways.. that aside.. I have some new goals that I would like to accomplish in my life - haha i simply listed ALL the things I want to do now, or sometime later...

1) Take up a guitar course 2) Take up an art course to do oil painting 3) Continue to play in String Orchestra! 4) Learn Flash in depth 5) Be financially independent 6) Buy my own car & house in say 5 years time? 7) Travel the world 8) Pick up another language.. maybe Malay? But not interested in Malay.. hmm! Korean?? hahaa.. .. 9) Continue to learn Jap 10) Try wakeboarding 11) Form a professional string quartet and get many lobangs.. 12) Be a freelance designer/web designer 13) LEarn business tactics and ideals 14) Work in mum's shop..revamp the shop..one day.. 15) Go for Lasik to get perfect eyesight.. 16) Get an exercise plan and stick to it (gosh this one has been for years now!!!) 17) Write a book on Spiritual living or something like that 18) Become a freelance writer for Catholic news or some christian publication 19)Who knows, pursue violin diploma? 20) Join Youth Expedition Programme to go overseas / or any other mission trip 21) Work with Daughters of St. Paul 22) Go for trekking & camping events.. 23)Who knows get married and settle down!

Yeah,.. uhm.. okay finally that's it.. mwahahhaah! SO many right? actually it could be more.. hahaha.. fine fine.. ok that's it... maybe these will all take another 20 years of my life!! Gosh! ;p

I believe i can fly...

Yet another flying dream!! Woohhaaha.. I lurve flying dreams!

Okay this one.. i was part of a group which wore - chinese gongfu styled - yellow overalls on white. Okay we were part of a certain group which had special abilities (aka X-men) but shunned by society. and the best part is that we could fly!!

It so happened that to protect the group I had hidden some of our old secret manuals in some old school (my old school presumably). A lot of things happened in between but I dunno what. Only knew that I was no.3. One day the elders called me - no.3 - to join the "team" to do something (dunno what) and I went.. overhearing others saying that "Oh it's to fulfill the prophecy" something like that.. woahh.. so its like.. i had some special powers that when joined with the elders, would complete "something"... so well.. we had to go find those secret manuals again.. and so we flew to that old school... but found that it was totally renovated, which meant that all the old manuals were gone!

I remember telling my elder then, that, it was alright, since time was moving so fast and we didn't even have any chance to consult those manuals.. we could live without them and begin writing new ones again (Symbol of new life somewhere else - maybe Youth Arise at OLPS coming up again?)

So then.. we began to fly somewhere else.. with me leading the way and we flew really really high.. u can just see the overview of the whole city - and in that place we were, there were mountains and huge flyovers.. haha...

Gosh can u imagine a group of yellow people flying in the sky aka superman style? or maybe matrix style now.. hahaa! And well.. i think i was a guy in the dream. Oops.

Dreaming of flying.. u just flap your hands.. and you go higher.. u just think mentally "GO HIGHER" and u'll go higher.. aaahhhh what a wonderful feeling... hehehahaha :D

sombre afternoon...

the pope has passed on. Significant. millions of catholics across the world must be mourning now..

feeling a tad bit sad for the loss of this great man. However, glad that he's finally done his job here on earth and now I pray he's with God in heaven.

on another sombre note.. went for spa session today with mum and instead of relaxation.. i'm all aching now!! haaha.. ironically... my "unflexed" muscles couldn't withstand the pressure of all the kneading.. looks like i've gotta work them harder... hahaha.. trying to think of some new regime which I can STICK TO.. haha... me and aunty penny.... we gotta work it out!! how how how? it's all in the mind...

another note... i'm swarmed with things to do.. an overdue poster for michelle, CD design assignment for school, evangelism project planning plus nitty gritty stuff like getting my resume done, travel plans, and studying for jap. man.. i just need to sit down, do my work.. and NOT watch TV or fall asleep on the bed.. i'm such a slouch..

Eunice Olsen on piano

I lurve Eunice Olsen on the piano.... I've had nothing for her up till today when I saw her on Miss Singapore Universe playing the piano.. ooh!! SO classy!

And well.. while I'm quite okay with the winner.. the rest were just sadly "TOO" Singaporean.. cannot speak, cannot walk.. sigh sigh..

But well.. kudos a fellow classmate from KC was one of them.. I shan't say who.. and well.. I dun think i can compare with any of them so i better not comment further..hahaha! Ciaoz..