A Grain of Wheat

Maybe, I am like a grain of wheat...

John 12:24 made sense for me today!

..."Amen, amen, I say to you, unless a grain of wheat falls to the ground and dies, it remains just a grain of wheat; but if it dies, it produces much fruit. Whoever loves his life loses it, and whoever hates his life in this world will preserve it for eternal life. Whoever serves me must follow me, and where I am, there also will my servant be. The Father will honor whoever serves me."

Read an online reflection here: http://www.heartlight.org/wjd/john/0827-wjd.html

I was lamenting in the previous post about how I am the older brother in the story of the prodigal son.
This passage that I just discovered today is like a continuation from yesterday's reflections. And praise god, that i remembered the song lyrics of a old catholic hymn and thus was led to search for the actual bible verse.

Anyway, so I'm like a grain of wheat. Unless I 'die' to myself, There cannot be fruit.

So what is dying to myself? As Jesus said, "If anyone would come after me, he must deny himself and take up his cross and follow me. For whoever wants to save his life will lose it, but whoever loses his life for me will find it.” (Matthew 16:24-25)

And therein lies the struggle ;)