Romantic at heart?

Sometimes even the coldest heart can yearn for some romance, that's why we have tonnes of soppy romance songs and tv serials and dramas... This afternoon i just watched a really typical HK love story, "Final Romance" (2001) with Edison Chen acting.. and Awww... he was so cute.. hahaha... anyway.... it was just like Winter Sonata, but in a condensed 2hr version... haha.. with the guy & gal meeting, falling in love, and in some snowy season (always!), and then the girl so happens to be engaged (always again!) to someone she doesn't love, but finally ends up with the guy she loves.. after lots and lots of trouble.. gosh,.. typical love story plus tear jerker if you add a bit more tragic twists....

Plus yesterday's wedding performance, awwww... perhaps i'm really a closet romantic??? But nah.. on the outside, i'm just too practical, too much of myself, too busy for these?? It's good and bad.. Ah well, like I always say, it's good to dream a little, but I better not lose my head!

"Mix idealism with realism and add hard work. This will often bring much more than u could ever hope for." John C. Maxwell. I wonder if this applies to love as well.. perhaps, perhaps not...

Well... its scary being in a relationship isn't it? right now, i'm taking my time and enjoying singlehood. There's simply too much to ask for in a relationship... u ask of something from the other person, and the other person asks of things of yourself too. While it's a give and take, its usually heartbreak. Because simply, its always one-sided. Been seeing too many around lately. Well, to everyone in this situation, Just hang-in there and stay strong! Put your hope in the Lord not man!!!

But as I hope in the Lord, it is not difficult too to feel despondent. Why is it that I find that I have so many wants and desires.. to find a guy.. there's simply too many expectations... he must be this that this that this that... And to really enter a relationship, one has to be a healthy individual first. I don't think I am prepared for that. Not that there's any in sight, but since i'm on this topic of Lurrrveee..

LURVE.. is an elusive thing.. rather, we should go for LOVE (God's love) which is like concrete floor. It is there forever. It will never go away.

But well... Sometimes, we can't help but go for the 'in' thing.. the LURVE thing.. so well.. there u have it.. the heartbreaks, the pain and the yearning, and the sorrow, the unmet needs, the expectations, and the tragic love dramas that happen in real life as well as reel life.

So well, perhaps that's why I prefer to watch soppy Korean/Taiwanese Love stories rather than experience one of my own. It's scary. I prefer the reel one for now.

Perhaps instead of learning about maths and money, and theories, we need to learn about LURVE. How to deal with it? And How to love the real LOVE (God), and not LURVEEE.. and to really be true to urself? to really be ONE with God, at peace, to KNOW the REAL LOVE?

It's comforting, reassuring, patient, kind, honest, and peaceful. That is REAL LOVE...