Can living healthy be a burden?

I think so.

Living healthy is such a hard rule to follow. That is - when you want to make it a rule. Rules are meant to be broken - so it seems really impossible after all.

All these sleeping early, the 'must' and 'mustn'ts' , eating the 'right' food.... it can be a burden at times.

And the same goes with saying the 'right' words, having the 'right' thoughts, doing the 'right' things..

But as I am compelled to think otherwise, i come to reality with the truth - that I really need change. And constant change brings freshness to life - motivation, zeal, and freedom!

I find this passage from Sirach 15:11-20 quite insightful....it's on Free Will. I only suddenly read it tonight:

"Don't blame the Lord for your sin; the Lord does not cause what he hates. Don't claim that he has misled you; he doesn't need the help of sinners to accomplish his purposes. The Lord hates evil in all its forms, and those who fear the Lord find nothing attractive in evil. When, in the beginning, the Lord created human beings, he left them free to do as they wished. If you want to, you can keep the Lord's commands. You can decide whether you will be loyal to him or not. He has placed fire and water before you; reach out and take whatever you want. You have a choice between life and death; you will get whichever you choose. The lord's wisdom and power are great and he sees everything. He is aware of everything a person does, and he takes care of those who fear him. He has never commanded anyone to be wicked or given anyone permission to sin."

I think -- if I find myself in dire straits because i was lazy or foolish in my own decisions, i shouldn't blame God and ask him 'why did He not show me the way'. Rather i blame myself for not keeping His commands at all times. What are His commands? Love God & Love your neighbour as you love yourself. Do i love myself? If i don't, i can't fully Love God or neighbour. Because part of me will always be hating something in myself - and that anger and bitterness is sin - which gives rise to the physical problems like this, that, the habits that are rooted into my everyday living. But the root of the problem - as i have suddenly reflected on tonight.. is perhaps - my own free will -to choose LIFE or DEATH.